— George Eliot
They
say it flies when you’re having fun. The
inverse follows neatly, and seems to apply in most cases. Or to draw a more precise rule, suitable for
all situations: the days, from inside, are longer than their sum, looking
backwards.
And
for further precision: a year is shorter upon realizing that your niece has now
been alive for nearly that long. A year
ago, we were still waiting to find out what she would look like. A few days hence will mark the anniversary of
finding out, and of her first discovering what our faces looked like.
Another
rule for consideration: the clock pauses in the space necessary for a jar of
nutmeg, almost full, to plunge to an untimely death. There was a moment of sluggish realization,
and leisure to wonder if I could intercept it after all. Then followed an analysis of the jar, and
mightn’t it be plastic, and perhaps things wouldn’t turn out too terribly? Despite the inconvenience of the shards of
glass, it was the richest-smelling mess I’ve ever cleaned, and pleasant in that
sense.
Finally:
two months, when comprising the entirety of the school remaining, is
intolerably long. I call my calendar a
liar when it claims that these days are the same as any others; surely they
have gotten larger, but the squares are, upon scrutiny, quite usual. And four years have been the breadth of a
heartbeat or wider than oceans, depending on my perspective as I glance over my
shoulder. It is always changing. But how wise are we, though we believe we’ve
mastered it, to put rules to something so changeful and elusive?
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