I
got a quilt today – not at the craft fair, but as a result of it. It is beautiful. It is beautiful in its imperfection and
irregularity, because it was stitched many years ago by hand. Every tiny stitch in it – I can see it from
where I sit, and I still marvel at it – was created by the hand of a real
person. A real person cut the squares
herself, every one of them, pieced them together with needle and thread, and
carefully sewed long diagonal lines through the layers of the quilt.
It
is hard to imagine that it was once more amazing to own something made by a
machine than by a person. I imagine
young Laura Ingalls in my mind, reveling over a mass-produced dress and
dismissing as ordinary many others, made with painstaking care by her own
mother (not that Laura ever did any such thing, but it is exactly the kind of
startling image I am thinking of).
Everything has been reversed now.
We instinctively carry with us a sense of wonder at anything that is
made by hand.
I
had several dolls when I was growing up.
I also had a wealth of stuffed animals – I did not want for inanimate
playmates. But around the time my family
moved into what we still occasionally refer to as the “new house,” though it’s
been fourteen years since that move, I went through a phase during which I
preferred homemade dolls above all others.
There was something about making them myself that made them more
special.
I
remember a particular doll made from a corn cob I found in our new yard (which
I think my mother disapproved of, as she guessed that it had been set out for
and discarded by a squirrel). Another
doll, which I named Minnie May after Diana Barry’s sister in Anne of Green Gables, was made out of
scraps of yarn and a paper towel. To my
way of thinking, the less they resembled my “real” dolls, the better, and you
would have been hard pressed to see any humanity in most of them.
Later
I began to construct slightly more sophisticated toys by sewing together scraps
of fabric from my mother’s sewing projects, stuffing them with smaller scraps,
and embroidering crude (but endearing) faces onto the finished products. The resulting crowd resembled nothing more
than a flock of smiling miniature cushions, but the joy of having stitched them
into being with my own two hands made them for weeks my most prized
possessions. Every cast-off portion of
material represented a new opportunity for creation, and my little herd expanded
steadily.
It
is a maternal instinct which creates an appreciation for dolls in many small
girls, and I think it was a similar instinct that was at play as I made my own
dolls. My creative acts were a rough approximation
of giving birth, and I could not have been prouder of them than if they had
really been my children. It is not so different
from parental pride, the feeling of satisfaction which one feels after making
something new.
The
analogy falls apart, of course, in the context of something like a craft fair. These people were selling the things that
they had made, and many of them were turning a pretty profit. But my quilt was different. It came not from a booth, but from an antique
shop, where live the precious belongings of many people from days long gone. The person who made it may no longer be
living, and I have no reason to believe that she would have sold it any more
willingly than I would have sold Minnie May.
I’d like to think that her children slept under it, and that it was well
loved. It was beautiful to them because
their mother had made it with her own two hands.
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